I’ve been finding myself getting restless lately. Over analyzing everything in life. Perhaps part of it is my working on my book… yeah, I’ve been talking about it a lot, but I am working on it.
I find myself looking back and wondering over and over, who was that person? I find that while that person was me, it no longer defines who I am today. I suppose that is a <DUH> kind of comment. Of course I’m not the child, teenager, young woman, 30-year-old, 40-year-old, or 50-year-old I once was. I am the sum of all those experiences, and a bit more. In all that, as I look back, I see a life filled with action. From the very beginning my life was not a quiet or dull routine. From the illnesses of my parents, jumping between different homes between my mother’s hospitalizations, my father dying when I was 13, joining the Mormon church with my mom after he died, moving to Ohio, entering college, starting out in music, switching to nursing, getting excommunicated from the Mormon church (as a heretic!), the decisions to go to Israel, adjusting to life here, and all the experiences in between—from all that to my marriage, Rich’s death, and my return to Israel, I can truthfully say, there has NEVER been a dull moment.
Suddenly, I find myself in an amazingly DULL routine. I get up, I go to work, I come home. Sometimes I visit friends. I get the shopping done. I work on my lessons for the Chinese meeting. Do some private work at home, and work on my personal writing… it is all so not exciting.
I’ve been struggling for a few weeks now, trying to figure out what is wrong. This morning, as I spent some time reading in Scripture and thinking of all I have to be thankful for, I realized that what was wrong is NOTHING is wrong!
Sometimes I just need to sit back and be thankful for the routine, the lack of stress, trauma, and drama. There are truly no dull moments, just moments to rest, reflect, and appreciate God’s great goodness to me—and to write about it.
All that to encourage you, wherever you are today. Do things seem too quiet? Take a breath, enjoy the view and relax—God is in the quiet! Are you struggling with the stress and drama of life? Guess what? God is in that too and He will bring you through. Just cling to Him and trust Him… the routine is coming… and when it does, enjoy it!
For thus the Lord GOD, the Holy One of Israel, has said, “In repentance and rest you will be saved, In quietness and trust is your strength.”
Isaiah 30:15a (NASB)