I guess we’ve all had them. You know the kind: You wake up full of energy, and then something happens to punch the wind right out of you, and the next thing you know, you are dragging yourself to get through until you can get to sleep and hope tomorrow will be better.

Today my roommate and I both had one of those days. So, if you are mathematically minded, that makes two of those days…

It started out with my seeing something on the Internet that someone had no idea would hurt me (and I won’t go into detail because that was never their intent). But it hurt, stirred up old memories, and had me grieving yet again for so many losses. For those of you who don’t know, I sometimes have problems with IBS, and that started acting up. By the time I got to work I was already feeling punched out. Then I started working on editing some abstracts. Only 120 to go through. They can’t ALL need rewriting, can they? O yes they can. And finally to add insult to injury, I’ve been trying for three weeks to see a specialist about my IBS and finally found the right contact person only to be told that the doctors have a meeting on Thursdays to decide who needs to be seen when, and that most new appointments will be only in December or January… and that does not help me now. We won’t mention my roommate’s day… let it suffice to say, we both feel like we had the wind knocked out of us.

Now, as I’m sitting here writing this, I think, why am I sharing this. And I think its all part and parcel of what I have set out to do here, to be just plain honest with what is going on in my life. I guess the test for us all is not whether these problems will be solved, but how we walk through them, whether or not they are solved.

I have a choice on days like these, to count my hurts, or count my blessings. I choose the latter.

Thank you Lord,

  • that while I may be surprised by what is happening around me, you are not.
  • that while I may not be in control of what is happening, you are in control.
  • that while I may be feeling weak, tired, and hard pressed, your strength is given opportunity in my weakness.
  • that no matter what, I still belong to you.
  • that my hope is in You and not in the things of this world.

Yes, thank you Lord.

    [16] So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. [17] For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, [18] as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.

(2 Corinthians 4:16-18 ESV)