The day has barely started, and several thoughts to wrestle with. Among them, what am I thinking of, getting rid of the apartment that God so graciously provided me with? If I am to settle in Israel, where will I live? Rents are as high as the mortgage. As I considered these issues, talked with others, and prayed about them, the thought struck me, either God is sovereign in the sale of my apt. as well as every other part of life, or He is not sovereign, and He was not sovereign in Rich’s death.
Weighty thoughts for a Thursday morning. My conclusion? God is not sovereign part time. He is not a part time God involved in our lives today, and turning his back on us tomorrow. Granted, we may feel like it sometimes, but that does not change who He is.
When Rich was alive, I was working by contract for a company out of town. Every indication was that this company was going to hire me. With much prayer we began to look for a second car that I could use to commute with, so Rich would not have to drive me to work every day. We looked and looked for a couple of months. We finally found one that was in good condition and in our price range. The day after we bought the car, I was released from that job! I was devastated at the time. Rich kept reminding me that God was sovereign… and he was so right. We had multiple reasons to bless the Lord for that car long after the job was gone. In fact, that is the car I am using now.
I made a huge decision this week. Was it the right one? I think so, but if I had to swear in a court of law, I’d have to say, I hope so. What I do know is that I can pray the same prayer I prayed when Rich was so very ill. “Lord, not my will, but Yours be done.” I so very much wanted God’s will to be a healing for Rich in this life. But it was not His will. And I can pray the same with regard to Israel and my apartment. Anything can happen between now and the final sale. I will trust HIM with the final outcome.
One thing I know, God is not a part-time God.
After thinking about these things, I sat down to do my morning reading. I had prayed this morning with some friends, and they quoted Proverbs 3:5-6. And wouldn’t you know? That was the verse in my morning reading. Thank you Lord!
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.”
(Proverbs 3:5-6 NAS95)