This morning, as I considered my relationship with Jesus, I realize how often I fail Him in so many little ways. I remembered how, when I first married, one day, Rich, the kids and I were talking at the kitchen table. For some reason, everyone got upset… it all came out wrong. While we talked, I’d notice Rich’s leg bumping into mine… and kept trying to move to give him more room, and the conversation deteriorated. Later that night, I told Rich how awful I felt. I told him, “You knew I was messing everything up… why didn’t you tell me to shut up?”
He looked at me gently and answered, “That was why I kept tapping your leg with mine…”
I looked at him in shock, “you mean…” and I realized how very gentle my husband was and what a blessing I’d been given, and how I’d disappointed him by not noticing his gentle and caring warning, which, if heeded, would have prevented what happened.
I’ve had many reasons to think about that moment with him since he died. And I realize, that all too many times I ignore the gentle tap of God’s spirit in the little things of life. And I felt terrible when I realized I had disappointed my husband by ignoring his warnings… but what about when I disappoint the Savior and Lover of my Soul? A bad attitude here, going to bed late there, an extra game drawing my attention from important things, only 5 minutes or 10 or 60… As I thought about this, a new thought came to me.
Do I even begin to comprehend what the Scripture says when we consider that Jesus gave His life for us? Not just that He died for us… but His life? He lived for us.
- Born of a virgin, He was a weak, helpless baby
- He was a toddler learning to walk
- He was a teen learning to live differently from His peers
- He was a young man, learning a trade, supporting His family
- And at 30, He was baptized, fasted, taught, had disciples, walked a dusty earth
- He was despised and rejected
When we say Jesus gave His life for us, do we grasp what the creator of the Universe has done? Do we get it?
“In the beginning God”
(Genesis 1:1 NAS95)
“Then God said…” (which means he spoke “words”)
(Genesis 1:3 NAS95)
“And the Word became flesh, and dwelt among us”
(John 1:14 NAS95)
His entire life was a part of our redemption–not just His death! And the resurrection? The proof of a perfect life. His death, an accepted sacrifice, His resurrection, the seal of our redemption.
And so I pray, that I will be more sensitive to His gentle taps on my heart to obey in the little things and the big things…
And be more appreciative of what it means when I considerÂ how God gave His son to give me life.
“For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life. For God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world might be saved through Him. He who believes in Him is not judged; he who does not believe has been judged already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.”
(John 3:16-18 NAS95)