Years ago, there was a group called Second Chapter of Acts. They had a song with some words that gripped me, and still do when I consider the times I’m living in:

How do you learn how to live,
if you’ve never lived before?

How do you learn how to die,
if you’ve never died before?

I think sometimes this is the challenge for all of us. We are born, bursting with life and death seems so distant. Yet it is always lurking there, the last enemy, as Scripture puts it.

I sometimes think I’ve barely caught on to the business of living. Dieing, on the other hand, offends. It hits at our very weakest, and reminds how short time is here on earth. And for many it is a comfortless ending.

When I think about my faith in Jesus, I realize that both life and death test to my very core. How DO I learn to get it right in this life? I have come to the conclusion that I can’t, on my own. I need God. I need my Savior to help me, to save me through this life I live, and enable me to get it right, as only HE can enable me.

Death tests me in a different way. All of the losses, great and small, are precursors to my own demise… and there is my difficulty. Please don’t laugh, but I’m not completely convinced that I will die! I’m not talking about denial. Truthfully, physical death is inevitable. But, if Jesus takes me via the rapture first, then I won’t die. And as I look at the times in which I live, and reread scripture, Daniel, Ezekiel, Zechariah, Matthew, 1&2 Thessalonians, Revelation, it is clear to me that the season is near. We are approaching momentous events. The times ARE changing. Even people who don’t believe like I do are talking about the world situation, and a possible “end of the world” as we know it. The end IS near…

But near is not here. Not yet. And so, physical death challenges me. As long as I am alive in this body, I will hate to see the suffering that dear friends go through. I will miss those who have gone on before me, and I pray that I will be a light, pointing to my savior, because we ALL need a savior, and without Him, we are already dead in our sins.

I suppose I’m rambling, but these are my thoughts these days, burdened for those who do not know or want to know Jesus, grieving for dear ones suffering, and yet, rejoicing, because God remains God, faithful and true, and I am so thankful that the God of creation, the God of the universe, the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, the God who gave of Himself through Jesus to save us, if we’d just believe… This God, is my God.